It was never explained to me before, and back when it happened, i just accepted, and never questioned the “why” behind it, i just accepted it – as it was and IS.
What i want to say is: Thank You, my Awesome, Incredible, Fantastic, Most Sexy Man in the whole World, my One — for holding me as Your #1. Please remember that You are my heart and breath.
What i learned in Gor today was:
Girls seldom follow behind and on the right. If she is thusly placed it is commonly a sign she is in disfavor. If more than one girl is involved, she who follows most closely on the left is generally taken to be in highest favor; girls compete for this position.
I was, and I still am, always on His left.
Let me state this right from the beginning, RIMMING has nothing, nothing nothing to do with SCAT. And scat is a hard limit for me. Rimming is something that i enjoy doing. Scat is something i will never ever do. ever.
That being said.. lemme post some piccies for you, and try to deny , that they are NOT hot, sexy, tantalizing to the eye…
i like to dirty, naughty , hard, rough, nasty sex. hair pulling. Belts. Breath Play. and ohhh dammnn lotss lotsss more!! And yes, golden showers is also a kink. But today my focus is on rimming. Rimming is the tongue pleasuring the asshole, around the hole, possibly dipping inside of it…
Do i fantasize about worshipping my Master ~ begging to worship Him by using my tongue to push it inside of His tight dark hole while He lowers Himself onto it, over my face, saying that He may not let me breathe if I dont properly please Him? oh FUCK YEAH, better believe it.
Have you ever thought about what you are, what you’re not? I mean, seriously, just reflected on yourself? It’s easy to blurt out what you “like” or “dislike”. But, take a moment, look at yourself. What do you see?
When I take a peek at myself I see the following:
Submissive by nature. Slave to One (Cr|mson)
A mother, wife, sister, niece, granddaughter, daughter, best friend, friend, confidant,
loyal, almost to a fault
patient, almost to a fault
A warrior, a fighter
A person who needs as much “alone” time, as i do spending time with others
A girl with a hot temper, however – it takes a lot to provoke me, or someone has to hurt one of my friends/family.
Respectful of All
One who possesses a contagious laugh
Lover of music!!
I am NOT the following:
A Domme (Get over it! I’m not a Domme, see above!)
Am not going to let You hurt my Friends, Family, and Especially – my Master . If you attempt it — WATCH OUT
am not one who cares for your drama/whining/ etc — take it elsewhere
One for silence – need music, noise, something in the background
One for the same ol’ same ol’ every day — Need variety, to try new things
NOT.. NOT NOT NOT going to tolerate BS
Well there it is!!! There’s a lil peak at me, what makes me – “me”. There is more, always more. But just a taste, just a bit of reflection.. And all this, before a proper cup of coffee!!! ~~
~~Cr|mson’s pita, ~~
Do you fear your Dominant? Your first reaction is probably “NOOOO, i do not” But *maybe* you should. Just a lil bit.
What i mean by fearing my Master ~ I mean, i fear disappointing Him. i fear angering Him. Disappointing Him is perhaps the most horrible feeling in the world to me, and i’ve told Him that.
If i didn’t hold these feelings, the respect – the fear that mingles in with the respect, I believe there would be a major issue. I wouldn’t be so eager , so willing to please Him, because the urge to please Him wouldnt be there, i would eventually just say “Ehhhh just do it Yourself”, at some point. If you think about it really, just think about it. Why run around and serve if the Dominant doesn’t seem to care what you do? If your Dominant just lets you do whatever you want without recourse, you’d eventually say “Just do it Yourself!” and then, one would say “hmmmmmmmmmmmm ~ whats up with that?” While every relationship in our BDSM lifestyle is different, and we should respect each other — in my particular case – i need that bit of fear there, i need to know my place is at my Master’s feet, with my lips pressed against His boots, or forehead against the ground.
I am a slavegirl at heart, and I am a girl that needs a firm hand, He has always known this. He uses this, and keeps this close to His heart.
I am curious to know what my readers/followers think about this subject. I know that there will be a variety of views on this. Let me know what you think —
Ohhh how much i love this series. I can relate so much to the character of Nora … and the character “Soren” reminds me of my own Master, Cr|mson, in a lot of ways.
Right in the beginning, when Nora is telling Grace about Soren, she says…
“He’s the best man on earth”
“Thats quite a claim. I’ll have to meet this man if he’s the best man on earth.’
“I’ll introduce you someday. One word of advice — show no fear.” (Nora says)
“Show no fear?”
“Seriously. He’s like a big cat with a catnip toy if you give him your fear to play with.” (Nora says)
How big a cat are we talking about?”
“Lion. Big damn lion.” (Nora says)
Ironically my Master is a mind fucker too, and He doesnt hide it. He blatantly says it. Girls have taken me aside and said “what do i do????’ and i say “Do what He wants, obey Him, and use honorifics, for God sakes!”
But, what really, really gets me , is the claim of “He’s the best man on earth” because I say over and over … “He’s the best Man on earth” about my Master. and I say that very sincerely. Because He is.
This book, continues on the fact that Nora is captured and held hostage for a few days, and I really dont want to give away too much information , but she does recount a lot of information and a lot of history by way of “stories’ that she tells to her abductors – to keep alive. OF COURSE, I end up crying during this book, because i’m such a softie, but — that is because i’m so attached to Nora and Soren.
Another favorite part of the book is this, when Nora speaks about Soren, and it reminds me Sooooooooooooooo much about my own Master, describes Him almost right down to a T:
“He’s the most beautiful Man on earth, He’s got an inner drive and power that I’m drawn to, he can scare the shit out of someone with a glance, he can put someone on their knees with a word, he can see into your soul if you make the mistake of looking into his eyes. And it is a mistake because you will never want to look away again no matter how bare and naked he lays your most private self. I knelt at his feet because I felt like thats where I belonged. And no, not because I was so unworthy of him, but because he was so utterly worthy of my devotion.”
When Nora was explained WHY Soren *shares* her sexually .. (keep in mind, as a profession ,He is a priest)
…”He had to beg permission to keep his motorcycle otherwise He’d have to give it to the order to be sold. Everything he owns, he doesn’t. It’s the order’s or the church’s. You. cherie, YOU are the only thing he OWNS. You understand??”
“Then why does he want to give me away?”
“Because you he can take back”
He raised his hand to her face to wipe a tear she hadn’t noticed falling.
There was a short period of time, that i feared that Nora would end up drifting off into the ‘nilla world with her beloved Wesley ~~ thank God her love for her Master overrode that and she came to her senses. And thankfully, there will be another book after this ~~ it will be named “The Priest”. I will look forward to reading all about our beloved Alpha Sadist, Dominant, Soren! 🙂
“It’s hard for an educated woman to turn her head off. That’s part of the joy of being a submissive. None of the decisions are yours. When you can’t refuse anything and can’t even move, those voices in your head go silent. All you can do, and all you are permitted to do, is feel.”
― Cherise Sinclair, Dark Citadel
Slut. I’m a dirty-
The sound of a hand hitting flesh was simultaneous with the shocking sting on her bottom. “Ow!”
“You don’t think those nasty thoughts about my sumisita, Kimberly.”
― Cherise Sinclair, To Command and Collar
“He drank in her misery like fine wine, savoring every drop, letting it soothe his mind, his tension flowing out the fingertips that held the paddle.”
― Verity Ant
“Yeah, equal pay for equal work and our bodies ourselves and Gloria Steinem and all that jazz…but in that dusty dark little corner of every woman’s heart where we keep our maps of Tierra del Fuego lives the hunger to fetch a powerful man his slippers on her hands and knees.”
― Tiffany Reisz, The Gift
Some Gorean Quotes! ~~~~~~~~~
You are slave. You are owned. You are a female. You will be forced to be a woman. The Gorean man will accept no compromise on your femininity, not from a slave. She will be what he wishes, and that is a woman, fully, and his. If necessary, you will be whipped or starved. You may fight your Master. He will, if he wishes, allow this to prolong the sport of your conquest., but in the end, it is you who are slave, it is you who will lose
This book was soooo wonderful. I felt like I was able to understand the Mysterious and Hot, Soren.. where He came from. How He thinks and feels about things.. And the range and depth of His love for Nora.. could be seen easily. I can NOT wait for the next book of the series coming out this summer called “The Mistress”. I just hope … hope hope hope Soren never lets go of Nora…..
I just received the book “The Prince” by Tiffany Reisz and will write my review on it soon! whooo hooooo! 🙂 i’m about 130 pages in, and the book is AWESOME. i can not get enough of Soren., the Alpha Dom. 🙂
One of my favorite aspects of the BDSM lifestyle… “Forced” consent.
For my own peace of mind, I do want to remind everyone of the “Safe, Sane, and Consensual” mantra and guidelines of our lifestyle. The participants in “Forced Consent” should always go over .. safety/safe words, limits, likes/dislikes, and should trust each other before participating in this play.
The definition of “Forced Consent” is… (From Wikipedia)
Consensual non-consent, also called meta-consent and blanket consent, is a mutual agreement to be able to act as if consent has been waived. It is an agreement where comprehensive consent is given in advance, with the intent of it being irrevocable under most circumstances. This often occurs without foreknowledge of the exact actions planned.
Consensual non-consent is considered a show of extreme trust and understanding. It is controversial within BDSM circles, even often frowned upon due to concerns about abuse and safety. It is mainly limited to those in Owner/property and 24/7 Master/slave relationships.
In recent years the term has also been used for the practice in play sessions. In the past, the term consensual non-consent was reserved to committed relationships, while the play practice used the umbrella term of edge play. This expanded scope is contentious and the subject of acrimonious debates.
In limited parts of the online BDSM community, “consensual non-consent” is instead used to refer to rape play that includes the use of safe words. This use of the term is commonly frowned upon, especially among total power exchange lifestyle participants. Experienced practitioners of BDSM generally discourage others from using “consensual non-consent” to indicate rape play. This attitude arises from the belief that it is a miscommunication potentially leading to serious and irreparable psychological harm.
That all being said…
i love love love when my mouth, or – for that matter, any of my holes are TAKEN. Cock slamming into me from behind, a belt around my throat, a hand in my hair, yanking my head back.
The abduction fantasy is also a major .. major thrill and turn on for me. The thought of… i’m out on one of my morning walks, being abducted (by someone i know and trust btw!), taken to a remote place.. being blindfolded, gagged, bruised, face fucked, my cunt and ass taken, .. feeling i’m torn in two. Pissed on, cummed on, slapped, broken, bitten, brutally marked. There are times, in variations of this fantasy, when breath play , knife play, trampling, gang bang are also included… but that’s because i’m not only into TPE, and the “Mind Fuck”, i’m also into pain. feeling as if i’m at the total mercy, broken and crushed by the Dominant.
Leave me a comment! Let me know what YOU like, what YOU Think about “forced consent”, YOUR experiences with it.